Becoming the lampkeeper

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Hi! My name is Renee and I am The LampKeeper.

My life began in the normal way. I grew up in a middle-class family in the small town of Summerfield, North Carolina. Although I enjoyed my childhood, I also struggled. I was the child that never quite fit in anywhere. My parents tried to understand me. Teachers called me lazy. My friends were few and rarely lasted. I turned to books. In their pages, no one laughed at me or scolded me.

While staying with my grandmother, and bored out of my mind, I picked up one of the many books she had laying around and  discovered the world of romance. I became lost in the pages of heros and heroines. Unlike my reality, everything ended in a happy-ever-after. These stories carried me through two marriages, two divorces, the births of four beautiful children, a third marriage, and up until the year 2018 when my world came crashing down.

In September of that year, my youngest son Nathan died in a horrific car crash. A part of me died with him. I cried myself to sleep in silence every night, begging God to take away my pain. I performed daily tasks on autopilot, without any heart. I became obsessed with near-death experiences on YouTube. Then one day a different kind of video appeared. It talked about how the laws in the Old Testament weren't done away with. I questioned if what the videos claimed was true. During my tearful nightly prayers of healing, I also prayed for truth.

It found me in an unexpected way. God gave me dreams. He spoke to me! I realized I needed to be broken before He could reach me. I became a follower of The Way, a Natsarim, a Hebrew Israelite; and after one particularly odd dream, I was given a purpose. "Tend to your gifts," Yahuah said. I wondered what they were. I prayed for them to be revealed.

Then one day, the characters from a story I put on the back burner a decade ago popped into my head, but with a new story. A story about rebirth and how Yah's laws are still in effect today. I wrote about every truth shown to me. Through my writing, I began to heal.  I began to LIVE! The LampKeeper was born!

This journey Yah has for me is far from over. In fact, it's only just begun. There are many more stories to write. Many more tales to tell. 

Shalom,

The LampKeeper